ok. hai!
been busy for almost 3 months? this is my first post since I posted the last one. LIFE IS GOING ON. there's a lot of things happened. Amazingly devastating. and I am now at the point where I am both feeling so thankful and afraid. Being so thankful because i've been on my half way to finish my study. But afraid of being not able to finish it. am I able? or am I just afraid? I am not even trying to compare myself to others. to my friends. even to my enemy. but hey. this is so tiring. and writing is my way to get motivated.
/Motivation//
trying to google it and I found its definition; the reason why someone is doing in a particular way. then I am trying to get it right. why am I here? why am I doing this? Questioning all the reasons that may help me getting motivated. been spending some hours figuring it out, I finally found it.
FAMILY. FRIENDS. AND MYSELF.
Studying things are not easy. and I believe all of you have ever felt it. but, have you ever figured out why are you doing that? well.. mine is because those three reasons. I am doing this simply because I want to see them laugh. and if somewhat, things that happened are not what I want, it doesn't mean that it was not my passion, but simply because I haven't tried yet. watching others getting better result, doesn't mean that you are stupid, but simply because you don't run as fast as them. and that is all the truth :) a moment, I ever tried so hard to get something, and I did it! it proved that we all can do what we really want to do or to be. the only thing we have to try is try itself. because, at least you try, and you won't be disappointed. at least you try, and you won't be curious.
guys. everyone outside there.
just don't simply saying it was not your passion. everything that you do. because that is exactly not an excuse for you not to get great things. because sometimes, yes, we have to force ourself in order to get things that we never expect before.
xoxo,
Lina
Being far for home...
that you can't wake up to mom shouts "ayo bangun"
that you can't watch your mom cooks
that you can't say "baju yang itu dimana ya?"
that you can't watch your dad gets ready
that you can't have breakfast together with you fams
that you can't go to school with your dad
that you can't say "I'm home" overtime you're arrived
that you can't have tea time
that you can't tell how your day is to your parents
that you can't see you dad home
that you can;t invite your friends home
that you can't cook with your mom
that you can't have dinner in your tiny squares of dining table
that you can't watch TV together
that you can't see dad lies on the couch
that you can't watch mum waters the plants
that you can't watch dad plays badminton
that you can't go to cinemas together
that you can't spend your sleepless night watching football with your dad
think that there's too many things you can't do outside your home, reason why you always want to be home, reason why it always ends up being home.
as you get older, you will realize that your time being home with your parents is almost over. you won't be able to sleep with you parents. you won't be able to spend weekend with them.
and that is why you need to be home. in your rest of time. because parents are what makes a house a home :)
PS.
lately I've been curious about smoothies bowl and I finally found tiny and cozy place located in Sagan, it's called RAISIN. the smoothies bowl costs 30k but It's okay for its tastiness and good place.
Lina
HI!!!
OMG I finally post a new entry! so sorry for being late, I know it has been almost three weeks since my last post. Anyway, as you guys knew, I just went to Korea for having kinda really-short-holiday. so that was really unplanned trip, I got my visa several days before my trip, and It was breath-taking enough to think how if I couldn't get my visa LOL
It took 7 hours to had flight from Indonesia directly to Incheon, but at the end, it took almost 9 (or more) hours to be inside the building because of the first snow YAY
my first stop was Nami Island, uh oh, I was finally able to be in that very mainstream tree-tunnel hahaha then I went to Ski Resort, and mt. sorak. well. Day one was good, I ate a lot. Ddakgalbi was really good! and also the steamboat. I was really lucky to see Korea when it had its first snow, I had my hotel in Sorak and My Gosh the scenery was breath-taking. both night view and morning view were all so romantic and awesome. anyway here are some pics!!
the next day, I had to move from Sorak to Seoul! so excited!
it took 3 hours to go to Seoul. then we had Lunch, my first time ate Samgyetang. even I didn't eat the ginseng, yea I guess you know why :P I didn't really go to much places, but Namsan - Seoul - Tower. yeah! finally went to the popular love-and-lock fences. AND I had night walk in Gangnam, well my hotel was there, so I took chance to have night walk. I loved to see what locals do, and I tried 3XMeals, and It was really good to feel the Seoul-Night atmosphere. well, I guess, I wouldn't tell you about shopping things or shopping day :P
okay! I know it was long post! but hope you enjoy everything I write and upload today! see u at next post!! :)
Lina
Think that it may become my first post in 2017..
I appreciate my 2016 life. every second, every minute, every day and night.
2016.
you taught me things. a lot. broken hearts, disappointments, achievements, new experiences, happiness, and others I couldn't mention them one by one. those get me into a feeling of being so grateful and blessed. I swear.
I didn't live my life on bed of roses, neither glass of red wine. there were a lot of pros and cons in 2016. and I used to live with it. every tear that went down my cheeks, every anger that broke things, made me into who-I-am. a stronger, braver Lina. throwback to the moment I needed to attend TNT (kinda 3 days training) when it was OSCE-week-prep, the moment I got acute stress on things because trusting wrong person , or the moment I was so happy because having best friends.
I was once wanted to make 2017 resolutions, but it ended up making this post as THINGS MAKE ME HAPPY :) hope it will be able to show how I really appreciate 2016 as once of my biggest changes.
I am so happy.... when...
1. wake up at 6 and see the sunlight peeks from my curtains
2. having breakfast at home, specially when it is fried rice with scrambled egg and chili sauce
3. having hot-water-bathing + mango soap and honey smelled perfume
4. having "we passed the test" text from bella
5. friends are having sleepover at home (Well, even it makes some mess, but it's okay)
6. iced green tea
7. watching korean drama all the day
8. staring at ahn jae hyun photos
9. birthday. well it always makes me happy.
10.go on a date (well, I didn't go on a date in 2016, but I'm sure it will make me happy)
11. go shopping
12. my package(s) come on time
13. see him smile at me or laugh because of me
14. he sits beside me at class
15. go on holiday
16. meet my SCOPH buddies
17. go karaoke
18. go karaoke
19. go karaoke (because I love to go on karaoke that much)
20. having my super-healthy-day go on jogging, swimming
21. updating my mac or phone iOs
22. eating ice cream
23. eating sate yam
24. playing Pump-It-Up
25. going home before the sun sets
26. having afternoon nap
27. watching romantic movies
28. watching movies at theater (wall whatever the genre, I'm still happy tho)
29. go to car free day
30. doing random-video-records
31. eating mcdonalds
32. exchange my starbucks coupons
32. eating ayam geprek
33. buying new pony doll
34. using unicorn emojis
35. watching little pony on tv
36. eating sushi
37. having midnights random talks
38. having Skype with old friends
39. making random videos
40. at stationary store
41. reading novels or artsy books
42. having my parents call
43. buying new make up
44. scrolling beauty kit websites
45. planning a holiday trip
46. sweating after having gym
47. cooking meals
48. buying groceries
49. playing UNO
50. eating martabak manis, specially when it's red velvet + cheese topping
51. ......
well. there are too-many things that make happy. and yeah...
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!
WISH U A GREATER YEAR AHEAD!
SHOW 'EM UR SEXINESS!
