The Hidden Diary

Life is funny, isn't it? :) Sebuah titik balık dalam hidupku, where I think everything really doesn't work on me. Literally, everything. Sedih? Marah? sudah kulewati. Dan kalau ditanya, what I feel rn,  maybe the word that suits the best is "pain". It's not the sadness or the nightmares that scare me, but the pain. It makes me afraid of doing things and...

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I need to say, I am so full right now. Full of joy, love and happiness. I am glad, that I met them today. Anyway, I just realized that I used to live in huge boundaries. Since I was in junior high school, I used to play with not-only-girl group. I am so thankful, because, yes or no, it makes me realize that...

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Once or twice, I remind myselfFeelings are temporaryAnd the pain, tooThis is just too much. For thing I’ve never imagined before. My life is stumble, fall, break into pieces. Too small until I find it difficult to put it back in place. But slow down, I keep saying to myself this is not a race. I will surely take my time to put...

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"You'll find a love when you least expect itIt could be any minuteSo don't fight the tears on your cheek" Crying over you - Honne ...

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Yes, I am turning 24 years old today. Feeling happy? of course I do. Life is too wonderful to be thanked, I am speechless for how it makes me who I am today. Being an adult is both fun and difficult, I start facing life problems, yet experiencing adult things hehehe Kalo bisa dibilang, tahun ini akan menjadi tahun yang berat, yes of...

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I may want this life to end. And start new one. but I can't. too much things that I've done, I need to finish everything. but, I am overwhelmed. I am tired. I can't open my eyes, because I cried too much. I am broke into pieces. And now I'm waiting people to take and fix it. ...

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We meet people for reasons. Well, all of them must be good for us. But good doesn't mean happy ending, right?   Most of the time, we are busy to fulfil people's expectations until we forget that we ourselves need to be happy, and it has to be first numbered (actually). We are too busy listen to other's wishes and hopes until we...

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Today’s the election announcement day!! Peopleare afraid, not excited. Social medias are blocked by the government, we aren’t able to send anyattachments by whatsapp, line or even instagram. Well, citizens are being grounded.Some of my friends use VPN - free, but I choosenot to. I let my night be calm and gentle without whatsapp or any reminder about work ;)Whoever the president is, be...

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The thing that keeps swirling round and round inside my head; I am not worth it. And nobody wants me.Why I live this life? Why Did I choose to be me? Why? I have to be somebody else to be worth fighting. So there will be someone wanting me. Badly. I feel lonely. Doing everything alone, waking up, breakfast to dinner. I am...

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Hey. Welcome back to the place where you had too much stories. The place you’ll always tell your son even your grandsons.  ...

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Kotanya kecil. Yang kalo kamu mau muterin naik motor paling gak sampe 2 jam udah selesai.  Yang kalo kamu berhenti di lampu merah cukup sekali lalu udah jalan lagi.  But I used to grow up here.  Hidup yang sederhana aja, sama keluarga, kalo sarapan cukup sama nasi pecel atau soto. Kalo malem suka makan nasi goreng atau bakmi atautahu thek. Hehehe  CFD satu...

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#np shane fillan - make you feel my loveGoing back home. Again. Will never be bored.People are running, rushing their time. Future Lina, you will remember this place. As theplace to start or even end anything. You’ll be grateful that you know the value of family. ...

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20.20I am on my way back to Solo. Re-doing my dailyroutine. Yakin sih, seberapa pun aku sering ninggalin ponorogo buat balik solo, I will never use to it. Never. Leaving home is always tough. Always.  ...

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Back to this page! Bismillah finally did my second election. 👌🏻 What’s the matter with leadership? Managing or it’s just about being on the top?  Been questioning that since the first day of my rotational cycle, some people just showed me what is leadership all about. Not having any advantages just to ease your own way. To be continued... ...

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