Let go of the person I miss the most is painful.
and hard. of course.
I let let you go without getting you know that I am hurt. all this time all I do is trying to believe that you will realize how much feelings I have invested for you, but the fact is...things that I heard.
I let you go, but promise me you gotta be happy.
bye. I'll be forever missing u.
We often lose ourselves in our way to find others. To become home for someone else, to provide things for others. Until in one point, we realize that we don’t have a home to go back, that we don’t have one to rely on, that we don’t have one to call at night.
Then, you promise yourself to be home. Not for others, but to yourself. You promise to give love you give to others, to provide all the needs for yourself. And it’s okay. We sometimes need to walk far away to see clearly what really exist. And once we realize, we never want to lose it, not again.
Disappointments, cries, sadness, tears. Lead you to a realization that it’s in one package; happiness and sadness. You can’t be happy without ever feel sad, vice versa.
Take a deep breath, and exhale.
Everything will be okay. Indeed.
It is what I see through my mind.
And endless swirling path, with no exit.
Where the more you go inside the path, the more you get lost.
The more you feel the pain.
The more you feel small and untouched.
The pain that leads you to an endless suffer.
The pain is on my mind.
I feel like being trapped. Where I can't control the speed, no brake, no pause.
I am drowning.
Night before I go to sleep.
Night when I am sleeping.
Or dawn when I am awake.
I want to go out of this path.
I want to forgive.
I want to change the color into bright ones.
But I can't.
I am trapped.
